Thursday, April 3, 2008

heart pounding, can't hardly breathe...

movie line... don't worry.

i feel like it's basically spring. and i know that it's basically spring b/c i wore flip flops this morning. and people looked at me like i was crazy. some man on the subway accidentally stepped on my foot and then exclaimed all aghast 'you're not wearing SHOES!'. umm yes, sir, actually i am. this particular type of footwear is sometimes known as a "slipper" or "flop". he said sorry about twelve times, so i felt bad for him... but still. it's spring.

this morning i had a momentary fright when i went to check my facebook page and saw that the "guy i've been dating for a whopping week" removed his status as "single". my body got all tingly and then i felt like maybe i'd throw up. rather an unusual reaction wouldn't you say? yes. the answer is yes. all the girlfriends keep asking 'well would you WANT him to be your boyfriend?'... and i can't even answer that. you know why? fear. i am utterly afraid of being vulnerable. so as much as i say that i'm open to a relationship and i yearn for intimacy and all that blah blah, the circumstance that it may or may not be staring me in the face, scares the holy bajeeezus out of me. deep breaths, deep breaths. (and p.s. the answer is yes... the guy is lovely relationship material... but give me more than a week to make that decision ladies.)

in other news, i would kill someone for some cherries jubilee ice cream from B&R. like seriously.

8 comments:

Karen said...

New relationship butterflies are my fave. Please RELISH, because if he's the ONE (don't kill me for saying that, but it is poss), you'll never have it again.

arija said...

you've already broken out the flip-flops?! you DO realize it's supposed to snow in the tri-state area tonight.

i never wear sandals of any kind until the 2nd week of may (in the nyc area). it's just too depressing to break them out only to have to put them back in.

lifeintheleftlane said...

I feel you about the spring fever. The second it gets warm, I bust out my flops only to have to trade them in for warmer shoes when it randomly gets cold again. Sigh. Spring time, where are you?

Hillary said...

Maybe he changed it out of respect? It's not like he changed it to "in a relationship" right? Maybe he thought it was disrespectful of him to stay with the "single" status.

The Zill said...

tara with a bf.... hmm.... i could get use to that.

new york dactyl said...

MARTHA GRACE!!! you be quiet right this second. *fingers in ears LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA *

Jeremy said...

If you don't stop talking about cherries jubilee ice cream, I'm going to want to kill someone for some too.

Spencer said...

http://www.cnn.com/2008/LIVING/personal/04/04/facebook.love/index.html

How funny, that was jsut an article in CNN about relationships on facebook

and put on some shoes for godsake, it's effin freezin out there!