awesome/not awesome

it's been a long time since i've done one...

awesome: slightly salty edamame and lemon/lime seltzer water (not mixed together obvi).
not awesome: any new season of "rock of love" or subsequent "charm school" television shows. who ARE these people, and why do they deserve any sort of fame?!
awesome: jennifer summer and her amazing benefit happening tonight! check it out. i'm one of the artists contributing to the auction and one of the people highlighted in jenn's section.
not awesome: yeah... still "charm school".
awesome: gentle smooches and beautiful blue eyes.
not awesome: limitations.
awesome: a sudden influx of creative juices.
awesome: the day after pilates soreness.
awesome: losing a few pounds.
awesome: having the summer of my life planned.
awesome: new beginnings.

oh hello hormones, welcome to the party...

what is one to do when an already active sex drive turns thirty and then one wants the good business ALL THE TIME? oh hello new person that i might be dating, welcome to the party. here's where i attack your face every time i see you. and even when i'm not seeing you, i'm thinking about attacking your face. because even though my brain is a giant whore... i am not. and only sleep with/date one person at a time.

i thought that a relatively normal sex drive was good enough... and as i get older, it's just getting worse! aren't men supposed to lose their sex drive as they get older? how is that fair? now, i'm going to become the weird chick that can't keep her paws off you, when all you want to do is sleep. that's interesting. i'm going to have to think about that.

also... i wish i had a video camera for my brain when i'm sleeping. i have the most vivid and ridiculous (and sometimes downright devious) dreams, and i wish that you could all see them. instead of me trying to remember and failing miserably.

my thoughts are somersaulting right now...