sort of an exciting day in dactyl land...

my photography website has gone live... still have to do some final editing and get a logo designed etc.. but it's there for your viewing pleasure.

www.taraleigh.com

eeeeeeeek!!

these also came in the mail yesterday, so you'd best believe that i'm rocking them today. i love zappos... such things should just be known. :)



i had a rather painful date last night... and i have another one tonight with a doctor (like that matters), and really, i just want to cancel and stay home and read. now i'm starting to remember why i hated this process so much last year... b/c it's painful and emotionally draining. i've already met someone that i think is lovely and such a great time to be around...but he's not looking for a relationship. so now what do i do? i keep going on painful dates, that's what i do.

a midtown monarch...

i just went into rakesh's office to tell him something about his notoriety as "an indian man that speaks many languages" when i happened to glance outside his window (at the ever increasing grayness that is the sky today... pending rain anyone? anyone?) and saw a monarch butterfly hovering. i mean it clearly wasn't flapping it's bright orange wings and flying around... it was sort of just coasting and was probably propelled upwards by the steam and exhaust of the buildings and cars below (i'm making this up but it sounds interesting)...

it's not very often that one looks out a seventh story window only to find a monarch butterfly commuting through midtown manhattan. i mean really...

where is he going? is bloomie's having a sale that i don't know about? i mean, he's completely missed the columbus day (aka let's celebrate our italianness and be annoying by blocking the sidewalks day) parade... but still. you don't come in to midtown without some sort of mission.

i wonder if i toss a 20 dollar bill out the window (that doesn't open) if he'll go on a starbucks run for me. i could use a little something-festive-with-caramel-and-a-long-name-achino, if you know what i'm sayin...

word.

all i know is that i miss you...

i have a serious problem. i'm a little bit obsessed with amazon. i've bought soooooooo many movies in the last few months that it's kind of ridiculous. but i'm buying all these movies that i love and that i can watch over and over and over again during my 'stay in bed the entire day b/c you love wearing your jams and watching movies all day' kind of days. but when i total up the amount of money i've spent in the last six months on movies... eeek. i mean its not THAT bad... but really... i need to knock it off and just get out of the effing house.

i went out to dinner with a friend and coworker on saturday night and it was really lovely. we had a glass of wine, and then had brazilian for dinner, walked around a bit... and i sent myself home b/c all the talking was making me cough really hard, but i had a truly delightful evening. i forgot what it feels like to have an easy and interesting night out on the town. i need more of those.

i miss the west coast. i'm just going to admit that right now. it's so lonely here. and i'm not getting enough visits... you slackers. ;) i figure this time next year i'll either be heading back to seattle or moving eastward again... why not europe, i mean really. i figure if i'm not seeing someone and moving towards that settling down stage, that i might as well see the world and experience as much as i can. i mean really, if you'd like to change that plan of action, by all means put a ring on my finger... but in the meantime, i'll be living via passport.

i've been coughing for about two weeks straight now... i KNOW as soon as i walk into a doctor's office it's going to stop... and then i'll have wasted all that money. am i being stupid? stubborn yes... but stupid? i don't pay enough attention to myself anymore, so really have lost clarity about alot of things.

all i know is that i miss you.

if i was a little kitten, i’d totally pet myself...

i haven't been telling many people, because i don't want to jinx myself... but there's a very good chance that one of my photographs is going to be on the cover of a book. they had a concept that they couldn't find a stock photo for, so i shot something quickly for them. it looks decent, in my opinion, but not amazing. so we'll see... crossing fingers b/c that'd be mighty groovy.

bronchitis and i are like bff... it's like we're in a long term relationship... except i'm not getting any ass. just phlegm.

i've been meeting a ton of people lately that all seem to have cats. do you know what this does to me? it makes me want kittens even more. we can't have pets in our current apartment, so i'd have to wait til next year anyways... but still. i want a kitten. soonish.

it's wednesday and the boss will be gone for two weeks for a bookfair. i'll either be bored out of my mind, or he'll call every day with weird requests and keep me on my toes. i can't decide which sounds better.

because i'm sick, and because i'm just that kind of lazy (or awesome, you pick) i ordered more food from fresh direct. i'm sorry, but the idea of someone BRINGING me fresh produce and ice cream is the highest form of decadence. and it's cheap... so i mean reeeeeeaally.

i get to see A this weekend. thank GOD because i need a hug that means something.

reason number 5,238 that i’ll never be a celebrity...

here's just another reason why i'll never be famous.

in the trend of abbreviating names to make people sound cooler a la JLo for Jennifer Lopez and LiLo for Lindsay Lohan....ladies and gentleman I bring you

Ta-Co.

bleh. at least i'd cause a new generation to eat mexican food.

happy tuesday.

a snugglesaurus is just what is needed here...

today is one of those days when i really just want to go home early from work, climb into the comfiest pair of pjs on earth and waste the day watching champion 80s movies... and giggling. i need to take advantage of the down time while i can, because i'm shooting an all day wedding tomorrow and need to conserve as much energy as possible.

of course someone else to snuggle WITH would be most helpful... but even in times of decade long dry spells... you get by somehow or other.

my pledge for october... i plan on blogging over here every day instead of just on myspace. i figure it's time to stop hiding behind the privacy of my friend's list and just letting it all out before it's too late.

i feel so much like a background person lately... that great things will never happen to me, i'll be the understudy to some great production. i mean, if i'm playing understudy to scarjo that won't be so bad... at least i'd be that much closer to making ryan reynolds my mancake for life. but that's an entirely separate subject.

clarification: as you may or may not know, i have an overdeveloped fascination with ryan reynolds... and jessical biel as it happens. so maybe it's just a blade trinity thing... but really... i heart them both. bygones.

back at the beginning with you...

let's start over, back at the beginning.

we'll shake hands, turn about, stare at each other from across a crowded room.

double take.

triple step.

topple over.

turn about and begin again.

you'll say everything that comes to mind, and i will smile and say...

thank you.



we will live a dream within a dream.

a never ending tale of joy...

the sheer and unabiding affinity for ease.

a pleasing moment.

an effortful distance.

an unyielding attraction that wills the worlds to collide and expand upon themselves.



in essence, of essence... we will be strangers.

with history written only in the books that we'll never read.

and i will conjecture to write you well,

if only in my imagination,

as i do now but with limited memory.



i will remember you,

if we start over again.